The Ghost of you and me.

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The Ghost Of You and me.

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Calvin Matthew
18
Cancer
FRIENDSTER.
Some things that you ought to know bout me.
I dont give a F**K what you think bout me.
I am me,and no1 will change it.
I'm cruel in my language and i may hurt your feelings with it.
Dont get on my wrong side.
Once your there,there is no ticket returning to the other side.
Dont you even dare point a finger at me without any points.
Never judge me. I hate when people do that.
Erm,what more.ask me if you have any question..

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Coldwindz Basecode.
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Photoscape .
The song: Ghost of you and me.
All the changes in my blog has been done by my lil sis EQA.Thank you so so MUCH!!!

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I love my GOD
ALLAH
I love my Family.
MoM -a person whom i'm
thankful for giving
birth to me
Father -I'm so like you
Sister Fadilah Hanim-always kind to me
Brother Shahirin -life wont be the
same without you
Sister in law Nadwah-My box full of secrets
I love my Aunties&Uncle.
Aunty Far&Husband -You guys are the best
Mami&Husband -You guys are the best
Uncle&Wife -You guys are fun
Mak Ngah&LateHusband -I luv you guys
Paman Zali&Wife -Awsome
Uncle Dik&Wife -I miss chilling with
Cik Nah&Husband -nice to be related
I love my Cuzzins.
Ayu -I love you so much
Kak Erli -Cool to be related to you
Mira -Watsup DOK!!
Arwah AJE -Your the best Adek
sedare...miss having you
around
Kak Aidah&Husband -Fun to be with
Kak Ean&Husband -Good day mate
Abg Mamat -Cool
Arwah Zaid -I missed you so much
i wish your still here
with us. :(
Shirin -Shall we buy that???
Shamin -Stop playing with the com
when i'm around can???
Jaja -Your a GOTH&I'm an EMO.
Ina -Hey Watsup!!
Suhaila -Best Motivator
Rafiq -Best Dealer
Ita -Pleasent moments with
you in the past
Afiq -your one of a kind
I Love My Blood Brothers and Sisters.
Shikin -Love you
Iskandar -Your the Best
Sharizad -I dont have to say
what i have to say
I love my friends.
Hafiz -Lunch???
Kamini -What would i ever do
without you
Vera -Your my dumbo
Richard -Haiz Sian Lah
Yuen Chung -Buddy
Siok Huan -I miss you
Siti Sarah -12 APRIL!!!
Syahrum -Idk what to write
Shahrana -What are best friends
for???
Nadiah -Nice to talk with
Azie -Sis....i'm all ears
Hafiz -Haiz...go on and forget me
aku kan siape
Syai -Lets shake the fun out
Haikal -Busu...do what you like
Irfan -Lets SHOP!!!
Zack -Thanks for being there
My GA
If i forgot anyone else,do tell{:

The scar still BURNS in my HEART

Monday, February 9, 2009

My scar still BURNS to think of it

the words that he use BROKE the GLASS image of myself into MILLIONS of PIECES

and now i feel like an ORPHAN

"IF YOUR LIKE THIS,I WOULD RATHER HAVE YOU DEAD"

and even

"HIS SICK?WHAT DOES HE THINK I DO?GROW MONEY ON TREES?GO POLY-CLINIC"

those were the words out of his mouth

did i ask to be SICK?

I'm A BURDEN to him

yet i ask

why bring me to LIFE

why DECIDE to have another CHILD

if you only bring UNHAPPINESS to him/her

in this case,him,ME

YES

my FATHER said those words to ME

and EXPECT me to just forget whatever HE said the END of the DAY

how can a SON

forget those WORDS

i have never been so HURT in my ENTIRE life

i've been keeping this MATTER for to long in me

and its just WIDENING the SCAR DEEPER

to THINK that

a child which is a GIFT of happiness for every PARENTS

has now become a BURDEN

so why shud I talk to him if i am considered DEAD and i'm a burden??

up till DATE he has OFFERED me money twice

a tactic in WHICH i use to fall into

BY using MONEY,anyone in my family can SOFTEN my HEART so that I would FORGIVE

but as the YEARS pass

i GREW up in so many WAYS

that i took a DECISION this TIME

i will NOT forgive HIM

and when the TIME comes

I'll go without LOOKING back at what happens TO him

Call me a HEARTLESS son

but i have the right to do it

yes i am still UNDER his ROOF

yes i am still EATING his MONEY

BUT he said the words

I'm A BURDEN

WOULD RATHER HAVE ME DEAD THEN ALIVE

so dont try and get back to me

consider me dead

OLD MAN

you only have a daughter and a son

this is my confession to the whole word

as i can no longer keep it to myself

YOU ABOVE ALL SHUD KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS

'WHAT GOES AROUND,COMES BACK AROUND,AND IT WILL BE WORST'

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