First things first

Zaii Shikin IS Georgy Nana Farkh

i'm sorry if I have been avoiding you guys

but alot of things is happening at 1 shot right now

and @ this times i dont like to be tied down

i know ur intensions are nice and all

but face the facts

you guys are the type of friends who like to tie friends down

i feel being tied down whenever i am around you guys

in a good way

so again

MY APOLOGIES

MOVING ON

TodaY

TRAINING WAS FUN

and i dare to say this out here

and i'm not afraid

what may come next i dare to face it

coz i ask the juniors personally and i got their feedback and guess what

i was RIGHT

it was dead boring

LEADERS!!!!WHAT ARE YOU DOING???

omg

Zaii....where were you???

I WAS SO BORED LAR

even two new members left halfway coz they think it was BORING

they even ask me if they can leave

i ask all of them a question

alot of question actually

one of them is

...how many of you think its boring...

guess what

not a single person's hand was down

and the sentences the leader's are using........NOT THE RIGHT TIMING

the decipline things are not to be said on first day

COZ IT STRIKE FEAR IN THEM

thinking

omg...this is gonna be total no this no that no FUN

tough it wasnt meaningless....

but

the ice breaker i had when i first came in was better

partly thanx to AYED

AYED....WHERE ARE YOU TODAY???

WHEN PEOPLE NEED UR ENTERTAINMENT....YOUR MISSING

when people wanna be serious...you appear and joke around

back to where i was saying

after the break

LEADERS i dont know if you notice....

but

alot of them went for the break......but there is a load that never came back

i really hope that it doesnt affect the num of juniors next week

haiz

there was only 1 game

and

1 punishment for the loser

unfortunately

i dont know what that kid did

my group got the punishment

and this is the interesting part

WE HAVE TO SHAKE OUR BUTT IN THE FOLLOWING LETTERS

S.O.U.L

correct me if i am wrong eh

THANK YOU WAN.DEE

its been a while since i shake my butt

the best part is

usually i do it infront of my family or close friends

i'm doing it to people whom i dont know yet

MY GOSH

but it was fun tough

kinda

me and alicia was like....how to do S???

this way or the other way???

haha...fun fun fun

then 1 member of the group did not do with us

so he was pulled out and has to do it alone

and he was supportive

IDK wat ur name is

forgot....so sorry

but any1 who is that supportive deserve my respect(dont take advantage of it)

I REALLY REALLY PRAY THAT WHEN THE APRIL INTAKE COMES IN

IT WOULD BE BETTER

seriously

haiz

right now i only remember names and not faces

nvm

THEN

DUM DUM DUM

today i went to meet kamini

at amk hub

went to buy a ring(for myself)

Anderson and ate Mocha Almond with whip-cream and strawberry

and

WE MET ALOT OF PEOPLE WHOM WE KNOW

OMG

OUR BATCH OF STUDENTS

4 of them in total

firstly DERRICK

secondly KEN

thirdly YONG DENG

lastly GOH FU KUAN(campus superstar)

like omg lar

so many

never expected them to be there

haha

funny

kamini was making faces

and was like

OMG OMG OMG

out of all the days

cant wait till it happens again...HAHA

THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING THAT YOU HAD GIVEN TO ME

AND PLEASE TAKE CARE OF THE SOULS THAT HAS BEEN RETURN BACK TO YOU

ESPECIALLY MY DEAR ONE'S

AMIN

Going Back to the Corner

Where i first saw you

Gonna Camp in my Sleeping bag

and not GONNA move

Got some WORDS on cupboards

Got your

PICTURE in my HANDS

Saying

if you see this GIRL

can you tell her where i AM

Some try to

hand me MONEY

they dont UNDERSTAND

that i'm not BROKE

just a broken HEARTED man

i know it

makes no SENSE

what else can i DO

HOW can i move on

when i'm still in LOVE with you

Cause if one day you wake up

and find that your MISSING me

and your heart STARTS to WONDER

where on this earth i could BE

thinking maybe you'll come back

to the place where we meet

AND you'll see me WAITING for you

on the CORNER of the STREET

SO I'M NOT MOVING

I'M NOT MOVING

Policeman says Son

you can't stay HERE

i say

there's SOMEONE i'm waiting for if it's

a day

a month

a YEAR

gonna stand my ground

even if it

RAINS or SNOW

coz if she changes her MIND

this is the FIRST place she will GO

Cause if one day you wake up
and find that your MISSING me
and your heart STARTS to WONDER
where on this earth i could BE
thinking maybe you'll come back
to the place where we meet
AND you'll see me WAITING for you
on the CORNER of the STREET
SO I'M NOT MOVING
I'M NOT MOVING

SO I'M NOT MOVING

I'M NOT MOVING

PEOPLE talk about the GUY

who waited on a girl

THERE are no hole's in his SHOES

but a BIG hole in his WORLD

and maybe i'll get FAMOUS

as the man who can't be MOVED

and maybe you won't mean to

but you'll see me in the new's

AND YOU'LL COME RUNNING TO THE CORNER

cause you know its just for YOU

I'm the man who can't be moved

I'm the man who can't be moved

Cause if one day you wake up

and find that your MISSING me

and your heart STARTS to WONDER

where on this earth i could BE

thinking maybe you'll come back

to the place where we meet

AND you'll see me WAITING for you

on the CORNER of the STREET

SO I'M NOT MOVING

I'M NOT MOVING

Going Back to the Corner
Where i first saw you
Gonna Camp in my Sleeping bag
and not GONNA move

Right Now

I AM

in the hall watching

THE NANNY

on hallmark

haha

very funny

alright

i am sorry that i havent update in quite sometime

but i'm still alive and kicking

kk

interesting facts bout me right now

i'm kinda in a mood swing

dont feel like talking to some people

staying away from some people

if your one of them

sorry

i just need time alone to think

coz my head is so so so clouded

haiz

ouhkey...erm.....

the other day some1 got me pissed off

this person

actually say that i should not choose something over my studies

the irony is

that person actually did the same thing

choosing something over studies

so i was like

WTH

who are you to talk bout me???

your no better then i am

so GET OFF MY BACK

another thing that is bothering me

some people just keep on starring at me when i walk anywhere

everywhere i go

there is not a single moment that no1 is not watching me

is there something on my face???

is my flyer open???

is my hair messy???

WHAT THE HACK ARE YOU GUYS LOOKING AT ME

there is is 1 person

always stare at me when i see him

and i got to find out that

well

HE HATES ME COZ HE FINDS ME GAY

well

???AM I BOTHERED???

I DONT GIVE A S**T WHAT YOU THINK OF ME

guess what...i hate you too

the funny thing is

if i disgust you

WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD YOU STARE AT ME FOR

like wat the

i hate you and yet do you see me staring at you???

PATHETIC LOW LIFE

AMATURE

wanna act tough

but deep inside

piece of BULLSHIT

i'm okey , i'm okey

chill

cool

i'm just giving my point of view

nothing wrong in doing that

so

i've been doing this new thing

a video blog on youtube

its kinda creepy

BUT I LUV IT

and if you hate it

again i shall repeat it

no one is forcing you to die die watch it

its

My Hands

My Mouth

My Body

My Time

My Space

My Account

so if you dont like it

then you can freaking get out

will do more of this vids

and if anyone of you is wondering what happen to my song writing

well

i'm now currently writing a new song

and when can you see it???

well

as soon as i can get a piano soon........i'll start doing everything and then you can view it

and give your comments

LUV ME OR HATE ME
THAT IS THE QUESTION
IF YOU LUV ME THEN
THANK YOU
IF YOU HATE ME THEN
FCUK YOU!!!!

-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-

WoW

Calvin Matthew

aKa

Muhammad Said Bin Hj Salehan

a few moments ago on the 8th January 2009 at 11.15

almost met with either a major injury on the head

or

DEATH

I'm still amaze at what had just happen to me

its a funny story actualli

i was watching the OKTO story

bout

COUNT DRACULA

if it's myth or legend

then i heard this

"thug"

sound

i look up

the ceiling fan was shaking

and i was like

ouh ouh.....what was that

is there a ghost in my room

i was spooked

so i got off the bed

SLOWLY

and walk to my door

i open it

THANK GOD IT CAN BE OPENED

so i turn and look at the fan

what was that sound and why was it swinging

and thats when i notice

the fan was juz hanging on wires

a lil bit more it would have drop on my head

and cause a major head injury or even my life

OMG

(tu pun masih tak nak berubah lagi...masyahallah budak ni)

...haha...

wOw

DEATH WAS KNOCKING ON MY DOOR

somebody is watching over me

THANK YOU

><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><-><

Today what i have to write

is really deep for me

Its about the two people whom i love most

who is now away

on a journey of no return

they are now

hopefully

and I'm praying that they are

in a better place

On the 6th of January 2000

My dearly beloved Grandma has been called back to the CREATOR

its is on that day that i had lost the only grandma that i had left

9 year's have past

a fast nine years

it was only as if it was yesterday

when i went to the cupboard to fetch her medicine for her

asking her which container has her med's in it

seeing her gold tooth when she speaks

seeing her walk very slowly across the hall

along the long table from 1 end to the other with her walking stick

every time i visit my grandpa's house

i would sit in the balcony and look at the rocking chair which she loves to sit in

and when i touch the chair

i would close my eyes

and remember the time when i hold when while she would sit in it

rocking the chair

But Till Date

i rarely enter my grandpa's room

(unless if urgent i need to use the toilet)

coz

i wasn't bold enough

as her smell still lingers in the room

and every time i smell it

i was weakened

my emotion barrier

shattered one by one

On the 7th of January 2008

i lost my dear cuzzin

and now its his 1 year death anniversary

and again,its a very fast 1 year

he lost his life in an accident

his a canadian raider

making his last job on his first day

at the junction of YO CHU KANG RD

an indian driver in a car was making a turn

(if you had read the newspaper,the indian man said that he made a wrong judgement and he tought that he could by pass my cousin and made pass him..ironically he is a driving instuctor AND HE MADE A JUDGEMENT.IS IT FAIR???and the worst part was he manage to get off the hook by just paying thousands of dollars and a suspension from teaching driving for 4 months..IS THAT FAIR???but who am I to judge if its fair...)

[I'M NO GOD]

def. he had turn in over the pocket

it was a green light

so my cuzzin was going at a constant speed

but when he spot the car which had turn in

it was too late

unavoidable

he rammed into the car

HARD

the inpact was so strong

that his chest hit the handle too hard

3 of his rib bones broke

and push thru

I'm not to sure if its the lungs or the heart

but shud be the lungs

when the abulance got to the scene

it was too late

there was too much internal bleeding

he passed away in the abulance itself on the way to the hospital

i'd recken that he must had a slow and painful death

the way i got the news was rather funny tough

was on my way back from work

fell asleep in the bus

apparently my mum called me

and by the time i reach my bus-stop

i woke up in time

i got off the bus

took my phone out

and saw the miss calls on my phone from my mum

since i was reaching home in a couple of min's

i told myself

WHAT THE HACK,IT CAN WAIT

when i eneter my house

i saw my mum was getting ready

OUH,SHE'S GOING OUT.SO THATS WHY SHE CALLED.TO ASK IF I BROUGHT MY KEYS

but what i had forgotten is

it half past 11

when my mum saw me

she came out of the room

walk across the hall swiftly

and hug me

she was crying

i ask why

she look up at me

and said those word which i can never erase off my mind

ZAID DAH TAKDE

translated

ZAID IS NO MORE

i was stunned

i push her away

DONT JOKE WITH ME ABOUT DEATH MUM

but now when i think

why would my mum ever said those things to me in a lie???

she hugged me again

and tears start running down my cheeks

i went into my room

change just my shirt

and the whole family was on our way in a cab to the hospital

while walking down the corridoors of the hospital

i kept telling myself that his going to be okey

and everything was just a joke on my family

i was thinking that he still there waiting to say

HAHA,I'M FINE

but when i saw one of my cuzzin outside the room crying

i knew that nothing was okey

i went into the room

and there he was

on the bed

the tube that they had use in the ambulance was still stick to his mouth

stained with blood

i saw his hand twisted

the eyebrow was also stained with blood

i walk back against the wall

i saw my aunty who was standing beside his body looking at my mum and said

AKAK,TENGOK LAH DIA,DIA TAK NAK BANGUN

translated

SIS,LOOK AT HIM,HE DOESNT WANNA WAKE UP

this story is too painful for me to think about and replay it in my mind

telling it is juz like rubbing salt on a fresh wund

but all i want to say is

i miss them both

i miss their smile

i miss talking to them again

i miss seeing them laugh

i miss the fights

i miss the hugs and kisses

i would do anything to just be with them and tell them that i'm sorry if i had doen anything wrong

and to just be with them only for a little while

i would do anything juz to look into those smiles in person

even if it was juz for a sec

I WOULD DO ANYTHING

I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING

i miss them so much

life is short

treasure all those around you

and never regret a single moment living life

AL-FATEHAH

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Eherm

Ladies and Gentleman

Goodevening Inferdals

haha

was only joking people

i am so hook up on ACHMED

peformed by Jeff Dunham

the video's can be found in youtube

kk

erm

i know when you read my previos blog and my tags

you would think that

what the hack is this 18y/o kid trying to do

thats so amature of him

WELL

i admit that i am

u never said i was mature

i need to do what needs to be done

and once i do it i will never regret

but i dont want to focuz on that anymore

TODAY

in the morning we had to report in school

@9

i was at the doorstep of my school

i meet Zaii in the bus

Met Naz at the bus stop

and while Zaii was waiting for me and Naz to finish smoking before entering th school

guess who we met

.

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keep on guessing

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keep on guessing

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well i will just tell you

while smoking

I SAW ETHAN FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER THE HOLIDAYS

AND ITS

REMARKABLE

HE COLOURED HIS HAIR

pretty nice

a lil brownish

with a sparkle of red

it looks good on him

wait wait

there is another interesting part

HE CUT HIS HAIR

AND ITS NOW SHORTER THEN MINE

OMG
OMGOMGOMG
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
OMGOMGOMG
OMG

GOSH

WHAT'S HAPPENING

everyone I once knoe is now a stranger to me

its like i dont know who they are anymore

i'm the only 1 who hasnt change

but

nevertheless

bro

I am proud of you

doing something that the Teacher has ask many times for both of us to do

I was never bold enough to do it

I salute you

and moving on now

the peformance that we had today i find it a lil stiff

without the seniors

there wasnt any soul in Soul Percussion

it was like we are playing

but only the notes that we hit came out

WHERE IS THE JOY THAT I HAD EXPERIENCE BEFORE

haiz

but i guess along with the new year

comes the new changes

and its something that i shud live with

sniff

this wed is exactly one year the tragic happens

cant bear to think of it

ONE YEAR NEARLY PASS

that fast

so i'll be ending this blog with this few sentences

life is short

it has no mercy

as and when HE says time's up

IT MEANS ITS UP

you'll never know when is your last breath

or when is the last breath of a person

so treasure those around you

love always

hate less

and most of all

BE THANKFULL OF WHAT U HAVE

and never the opp

with that

GOD BLESS

/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\-\/-/\

HaHa

YOU WILL SO ENJOY READING THIS POST I WROTE

I AM NOW OFFICIALLY

MR!(I WILL NOT WRITE UR NAME DOWN)

my name is cool right

go down to

and read the post on

Sunday,December 21,2008l10:32pm

THATS ME

AND I AM ADMITTING IT

WITH NO REGRETS

I WAS WONDERING WHEN SHE WILL KNOW WHAT I KNOW

wat a big huha this turns out to be

but

the sad news is

i wasnt surprise that this thing is happening

i was just waiting for you to make your move

and now that you have

its my turn to move

if your sitting there waiting for me to type

ouh LILSU i'm so sorry for doing that to you please forgive me

well

FAT-HOPE,DREAM ON LILSU

and please dont put words into my mouth lil miss

i said i need time away from her until i can let go off the feelings

not i dont want to be friends with her anymore

i trusted you so much

even told you that ur like a sister to me

and yet you text her everything

that was my bad

i heard you did something to someone

and they told me not to trust you

(a lil touch on this part

you go around telling people in your class about Azie doing something

when you yourself do that something)(zaii will be wondering wat that something is...shud i tell?)

yet

i told them i will not believe anything coz no such things happens to me

and BANG

you shot me from the back

WOW

painful as it is

lucky me i recover fast

and i know what i must do next

make everyone see what i see

my intention was never to spoil your name(as if it doesnt have that foul smell yet)

nor was it to pull everyone away from your long list of friends

my motive was only to make them aware of ur true colours

coz apparently

ur a skunk

looks so innocent but farts a foul odour

and if ur wondering wat a skunk is

its an animal,black and white

the stink comes from the ASS

ouh yeah

the nobody part

if i am a nobody

then how come i'm bothering you so much that you have to bang your anger's

in blogspot

i shud be thanking you for making me so FAMOUS

the FAME and GLORY i like

and who are you to tell me indirectly that i'm a coward by not confronting

you to your face

when you yourself write things on blogspot

and not say it to my face

Your The PoSER

Your The LoSER

I'm Just a RooSTER

cooKLEdooDLEdooOO

now everyone will see your true colours after reading my blog then ur blog

or vice-versa

peace out konon....HAH....BoLeH PEe DAh

i cant wait to stare into ur eyes when i see you in CeMtA

it will be my pleasure to crush you in person

and i cant wait to tell AYU my dear cuzzin what you just did

i'm pretty sure she will have something 'NICE' to say about you to me

to be honest

i've crush down alot of my friends in secondary school

made a teacher cried

split the class into two

stare all the backstebbers into silence in sec 5

whatever i've just did

it was just a piece of cake

plain cake

so that is about it
so now i'm gonna text you LILSU to read my blog of course

(she replied: Ok i'll link yah up soon)

T_T

Then

youll have to go and read from the top

by the time you reach this part

you must have been thinking

WoW

Said is such a nice person to write such

GOOD & HONEST

review on LiLSu

You shud be thanking me for keeping quiet all the while and pretend

that you had done nothing to me

you shud have known

WHERE YOU STAND

&

NOT TO CROSS THE LIMIT

right now you must be so devastated to see me writing such stuff

this is only a fraction of my wrath SUTINAH

make sure you DO cross the limit again

and see my full potential

YOUR MY BEST FRIEND

BTW

congrats on your 1.7 GPA

TaTa

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My throat is killing me

Its so F**CKING dry

the fever is getting better

But I'm not to sure if I'm getting better or worst

earlier on when i was showering

i cough up all my flam

i cough up alot of blood as well(ssssshhhhhh)

and also when i blow my nose

there was also blood

scary right

I'm still not going to the doctor

after what that OLD MAN said about me

I will never forget nor will I ever forgive him till the ends of time

but no matter what

I'm still strong

and i'll be going to school as per normal on 5th Jan

so do not worry about me

.....haiz.....

I

JUST

FEEL THE

NEED TO SAY

THIS AGAIN TO ALL

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I

LUV YOU

ALL MY DEAR READERS

Today I woke up at 6

with a major HEADACHE

so i took some

and i drank vitagen

and a cold shower

my temperature has been running up and down the staircase

and now it seems that it has finally stabalize at 36.4'C

lets pray it stays that way for the rest of the day

if not

I'll suffer during Soul Training later

BTW

Thanx for saying yes to taking the bus with me

i'm feeling so drowse