The Ghost of you and me.

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The Ghost Of You and me.

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Calvin Matthew
18
Cancer
FRIENDSTER.
Some things that you ought to know bout me.
I dont give a F**K what you think bout me.
I am me,and no1 will change it.
I'm cruel in my language and i may hurt your feelings with it.
Dont get on my wrong side.
Once your there,there is no ticket returning to the other side.
Dont you even dare point a finger at me without any points.
Never judge me. I hate when people do that.
Erm,what more.ask me if you have any question..

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Coldwindz Basecode.
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Photoscape .
The song: Ghost of you and me.
All the changes in my blog has been done by my lil sis EQA.Thank you so so MUCH!!!

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I love my GOD
ALLAH
I love my Family.
MoM -a person whom i'm
thankful for giving
birth to me
Father -I'm so like you
Sister Fadilah Hanim-always kind to me
Brother Shahirin -life wont be the
same without you
Sister in law Nadwah-My box full of secrets
I love my Aunties&Uncle.
Aunty Far&Husband -You guys are the best
Mami&Husband -You guys are the best
Uncle&Wife -You guys are fun
Mak Ngah&LateHusband -I luv you guys
Paman Zali&Wife -Awsome
Uncle Dik&Wife -I miss chilling with
Cik Nah&Husband -nice to be related
I love my Cuzzins.
Ayu -I love you so much
Kak Erli -Cool to be related to you
Mira -Watsup DOK!!
Arwah AJE -Your the best Adek
sedare...miss having you
around
Kak Aidah&Husband -Fun to be with
Kak Ean&Husband -Good day mate
Abg Mamat -Cool
Arwah Zaid -I missed you so much
i wish your still here
with us. :(
Shirin -Shall we buy that???
Shamin -Stop playing with the com
when i'm around can???
Jaja -Your a GOTH&I'm an EMO.
Ina -Hey Watsup!!
Suhaila -Best Motivator
Rafiq -Best Dealer
Ita -Pleasent moments with
you in the past
Afiq -your one of a kind
I Love My Blood Brothers and Sisters.
Shikin -Love you
Iskandar -Your the Best
Sharizad -I dont have to say
what i have to say
I love my friends.
Hafiz -Lunch???
Kamini -What would i ever do
without you
Vera -Your my dumbo
Richard -Haiz Sian Lah
Yuen Chung -Buddy
Siok Huan -I miss you
Siti Sarah -12 APRIL!!!
Syahrum -Idk what to write
Shahrana -What are best friends
for???
Nadiah -Nice to talk with
Azie -Sis....i'm all ears
Hafiz -Haiz...go on and forget me
aku kan siape
Syai -Lets shake the fun out
Haikal -Busu...do what you like
Irfan -Lets SHOP!!!
Zack -Thanks for being there
My GA
If i forgot anyone else,do tell{:

I tried so Hard

Monday, December 1, 2008

I juz came back from the airport

I went to sent my aunt off as she was going to the holly land

Earlier in the day

after school i went straight to my aunt's place

chatted with her daughter,my cousin

who was with her son(Ryan Harris)

She told me how sad she is gonna be

after losing her youngest brother

my cousin who moved on to the after-life after meeting withan accident

a bike accident early 2008

and now that her mum is gonna leave for 1 month

she told me that she dont know how to react to it

I told her that its gonna be only for a month and that everything will be back to normal after

But i guess actions is bigger then words

tough i have felt being left by my mum when she went to the holly land

i still had my siblings and my grandpa and my sweet aunty to take care of me

but i will never know how much it is to loose a blood

as i sat by her,i saw her eyes wondering off

looking at my aunty who was napping on the praying matt

Thats when i told yself that I had to be strong for them

so that i could lend my shoulders to them to shed their tears

At the airport

we took pictures together with my aunty and uncle who was going off

tough at first part it seems to be some what like a cheerful event

the tears starts to fall as soon as they bid their farewells

as i hug my aunty

my eyes started to filled with tears

but for the sake of her son and daughter

my beloved cousins

i keep on telling myself that i had to be strong for them

so i pulled myself away and look around to fade the tears away from my eyes

as my aunty and my uncle went thru the first gate

all of us tried to wave goodbye,but only the tall ones were able to see

fortunatey i was tall enough to see then walk off and disappear

i turn to look at my cousin

not to my surprise

both were crying

the most touching part was

Ryan Harris

the 1 year old kid's eyes started to turn redish and was filled with tears

as tough he knows that his grandma and grandpa was goona leave

after we got away from the crowd

i walk to my cousin and rub her back

Still trying to be strong and not shedding any tears

i told her

"Everything will be just fine"

tough the words meant nothing much

it was short and simple

and she knew what i was trying to say and simply smile back and me

and said

"I'll be just fine"

on our way back in the bus

when the driver dimmed down the light

it was a nice apportunity for me to take a quick nap

i lay back comfartably

and switch on my ipod

and guess what

the song which suits the situation burst out

"I hate this part-Pussycat Dolls"

i knew it was safe for me then as no one would be able to see me cry

so i let it all out quietly

I tried so hard to be strong for them

but i guess i can never be that strong afterall

and now i am still thinking of what to text them tomorrow

to tell them that they have me if ever find themselves lonely

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